Happy Birthday my darling boy To my darling boy, You seem so large in my arms all of a sudden or perhaps it's because I am taking notice of how much you've changed. From your less than traditional entrance in the world you were always going to do it differently weren't you? You are already , walking, talking and climbing on anything you can get your hands and feet on. You seem so old, yet are still so young. You race around to keep up with your brother. You play with and do whatever he does, perhaps that's why you seem so grown up. I see how you look at him, with complete love and devotion. I am writing to say two things. One, Happy 1st Birthday my long haired loony. I hope you enjoy being spoilt beyond belief. Something your not too used too hay? The other is to say I am sorry. After you were born I wasn't myself for a very long time and somewhere along the line I blamed you. I blamed you for how I was feeling, for the darkness and that wasn't
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