Elijah, You’re upstairs asleep, I am downstairs crying. You should be at nursery, but we didn’t even make it out of the house. I couldn’t handle you, the situation, I feel like I have failed you. That I failed as a mother, and not for the first time. There have been times in our crazy two years I have broken down and cried, out of happiness, fear, frustration, you name it, as your mother I have felt it. Even more so as our journey wasn’t so textbook, kiddo. As much as I want to admit you are a normal little boy, with what you have been through in your short life, you are not. Things took their toll on us as parents, but they also left their mark on you too. I know there are a lot of changes going on around you, and some you may not fully understand. In a few months, you will become a big brother, but it is beginning to dawn on me this may be more than you can handle. For a while you have been acting out, getting emotional, we put this down to the terrible twos, bu...
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