Vicki Cockerill - NICU MUM Blog

Dreams far away from the NICU Every day for 7 days I walked past the mothers with their perfectly healthy babies and felt sick to my stomach. Why was this happening to us? I had to quickly learn about the day to day running of the NICU and spent 90% of my time there. I walked through the ward with my head hung low with an empty car seat. I was going home without my baby. The double doors, the constant hand sanitising, knowing what times the Doctors did their rounds all became second nature to me." This is taken from my blog which was featured on the brilliant @clemmie_telford #motherofalllists and one I wanted to reshare for #nicuawarenessmonth . One of the most traumatic and hardest things I had to deal with whilst we were in #NICU was the separation from my baby just a few hours old. https://motherofalllists.com/2017/12/01/guest-list-life-on-the-neonatal-intensive-care-unit/ #nicu #nnuh #motherofalllists #clemmie #nicumum #hospital #ptsd #chd #TOF #trau...

Days spent longing for the words. You're going home, the words anyone on #NICU long to hear. Once the adrenaline and emotion of loading up your baby in the car and getting them through the front door ebbs away, it hits you like a lorry. The worry. The responsibility. The fear they have got it wrong you shouldn't be here, you should be back where they can be monitored. He surely needs medication? The machines ring in your ears as you close your eyes. You can still smell the disinfectant and hand sanitizer from the ward. You are home but you are still very much on that NICU Ward. This is a small snippet of a #guestblog I wrote for @honestly_mum on her blog to mark #nicuawarenessweek link is below; https://www.kathrynstimpson.com/thebusyparent/confessionsofanicumum Please do share/like/ tag a #nicuparent or someone who may need some #tips on #transitioning from #nicu to #home . . . . . #nicuawarenessmonth #september #nicu #nhs #hospital #baby #birth #nicumu...

September and all of the feels. September . This month holds a lot of conflicting emotions for me. The reason? E was born on Sept 18th 2014. September was the month I became a mum. September was the month I met my little boy 4 years ago. September was the month my world crashed around me. September was the month I had my baby taken away 12 hours post birth and admitted to NICU. September is the month I watched my baby through an incubator fight for his life. September is the month where we found out he had a stroke and also needed open heart surgery. September is the month my life changed forever. September is the month I became a NICU Mum. September is the month where I began to develop #PTSD . September is #nicuawarenessmonth and I will be sharing ALOT of #nicu posts and blogs about my experience as a #nicumum for a number of websites, publications and organisations to raise awareness of our story and the issues we fought and to say thanks to the amazing #nicustaff and #nh...