The numbness of motherhood- Vocal
|Motherhood isn't always picture perfect|
I have written a piece for Vocal which you can see a sneak peek of below and link to full piece is at the bottom of the page.
I felt so detached from him, when was the unconditional love part going to kick in? My maternal instincts seemed to have disappeared.
A mother should not feel like this towards her child, should she?
I could hear my other child playing in the other room and felt resentment.
Resentment that because of having a second child there was now a barrier up between my first and me.
He was no longer the centre of attention and I missed it being just me and him.
I missed being the fun mum to him, the one who wasn’t constantly pushing him aside to sort out his brother or yelling to be quiet.
I thought I would be able to adjust being a mum of two and I knew it would be hard.
But not this hard.
Every day is a battle just to get through and do the most mundane of things.
It is a constant cycle of nappies, bottles and snacks.
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